Kiruna

Everytime Im driving from work Im amazed how beautiful Kiruna really is, and why I couldnt see it before. Maybe I didnt want to, maybe I was to busy to look or maybe I was so caught up getting away from here I couldnt see what I really had. Sometimes I do feel really hurt over the fact that I dont want to live here. I dont understand why. Why is it that this place, my hometown and the place where I spent my childhood, my drunken teenage years and where I found friends for life isnt the right place for me? Why cant I be satisfied for what I got? Most of the time I panic over the thought staying here and living here but sometimes I just want to stay forever. Well I do belive thats good, no matter where I go I can look back at Kiruna and feel good that I have it. So if I leave now I wont destroy that image of it. I will always have it with me whereever I go. And when things get tuff I can go back and enjoy sitting outside and watch the mountains sourranding me.

Theres no place like home they say and its true. But I do wanne get somewhere in life and this town is to small for me. But it was a fantastic place growing up. Maybe we didnt have all of the luxury a metropolitan city can offer, or even the comfort of good public transport. But we had the never ending forest to play in. Snow to ski on and northen lights to look at. And we had our friends. So what more can you really ask for when ur young?

But Im older now and the demands of whatever you want in life is moore.

I only have one wish right now. And that is to board that plane and start living again!
I dont know, I just have this feeling that Im ment to be somewhere else right now. I just have to wait a bit longer but one day I will make it there. And when I do I can look back at my home with a smile on my face and think of everything that once was my life.

Sunday hang over

Sunday hang over is the worst time for me beeing without my man. I need him. He is my best hang over company, staying in bed watch family guy and do nothing. Love it!

Anyway the party last nite was a blast. I drank SO much diffrent drinks and shots. Sang singstar so much my voice is pretty bad 2day. Then we all sat out on the balcony in the midnightsun singing songs. It was a lot of singing involved thats the way I like it. Wouldnt suprise me that when I get old I will be one of the old very annoying ladies u see sitting at the pub singing. haha that will be me!
Realized another thing today. Its not a good idea mixing drinks if u dont want to wake up the next day with a headache from hell. But it was all worth it!
Today its three weeks left and then the trip starts! Im so excited!! boats, trains and buses and hotelrooms! I love going new places and seeing new things. Travel is always good no matter where you go. And its also a very good way to get to know your self and what ur capabel of. I have done a lot of things on my own so far in live. Its good to finally have someone to share it all with. And go places either have been 2 before. I love it! Im great on my own but I love beeing with someone else. And so far in life I havent had the the will to be serious about really anything. This year that I was away got me thinking its time for me to start planning the rest of my life. And the best place to start is Melbourne. I love it there, fantastic people, lots of possibilities and just a great city to be in. Cant wait to be a melbourian for real!
Its goodnight for me and soon it will be goodmorning for the people down under. Miss u all heaps!