Xmas Time

Christmas is around the corner, a new year is about to begin. Again!

I would like to say thank you to all of my friends around the world, and friends I had and lost, and thank you to my wonderful family!
You have all been a part of my life and helped me become a person, an individual.
You have pushed me to do things Im scared off, to step outside my comfort zone. You have been there through hard times when I just couldn't stand alone.
You have laughed and loved with me.
And you have also brought me back to earth and told me off when I needed to hear it.
You have all had an impact in my life in one way or the other, some more some less.
And for that I love you all!
For the first time in my life I feel safe and grounded in my own body, with my personality. I feel like Im starting to know who I am.
After all the years of struggle, up and downs, anger, love and sadness. I still have all of those feel;ings but now I know how to deal with them
And I have to say I like my self now. Who I have become.
And for the things I would like to change, I will, but nothing comes overnight.

For me christmas is not a big deal. Especially not when Im here. Christmas is snow. If there is any time of the year I get depressed for being away it is this time. But its also a time when I can reflect on what Ive done, where my life is headed and be happy for everything I have experienced so far. And be happy for the wonderful people I have in my life, both here and back in Sweden.

So Merry Christmas to you all! I hope you receive everything you wish for, but mostly I hope your are all happy and safe whereever you are.
xoxoxo

Home

Its not like I dont get it, I do. But maybe its better to pretend that I dont.
Playing smart or playing stupid?
Either way, I know I get it thats all I need to know.
The way you see me, the way you think I am, the good things you see in me, the bad things you see in me. They are all things YOU see in me. I do care how people view me. But how well do you really know me?
Do you know me well enought to discuss my actions? Do you feel you know me well enough to judge me?
Our actions is not always smart calculated choices, somethimes its plain stupidity.
But isnt that the whole idea? What is so wrong with doing wrong if you learn from it?
And remember what is wrong for me might not be wrong for you.

As I was reading through some old posts and I started missing people. My friends and family at home. But also friends here that I no longer have contact with for different reasons. I missed the feeling of feeling at home so to say. I do feel at home here, but I havent been here for that long yet. I havent created that homly feeling. Maybe I shoud start by organising my room.
Home is where the heart is. Im just not so sure where mine is at the moment.

Wasabi makes everything better

Its spicy, its hot, a bit sour? Clears your throuth. Yeah It makes it all better.
And its so amazingly good!

Lesson of the week is to distance my self from others problems. Not to let my self get affected. Accept it as it is.
I feel content at the moment, happy and excited.
I do not want to lose that feeling, so I wont.
The difference between a good day and a bad day is your attitude.
So yeah there will be bad days, but it will not be anyone elses fault.
And yes there will be people to piss you off, but its up to you how you approach  it.

Tomorrow is a new day.
Hopefully one with a good attitude

Monday Morning (I thought I changed since yesterday)

This was me when I arrived in OZ 2008 for a working holiday. The plan was to be gone one year at tops. Now its the end of 2011 and Im still here.
So many things has changed but so many things are still the same. Its seems like all around me everyone is growing up, moving on into new phases of their life. I feel like I have been in a bubble for two years at least. But a pretty good one.
I was reading a post i made a year ago about lies. So true. I have moved on now, and it feels so good.
Kelly was over friday night and we had a blast! Shes always there and for that I love her!
Monday today, I wonder what this week will bring. I need to step up my game a bit, do some preparation for work and get started on my training again. Oh and we got a pool at the house so I have to try that one out as well! There is no time for distractions, this next year coming is going to be a big one. I hope whatever happens I will be happy in the decisions that are taken for me, and maybe I can finally move in to the next phase of life.
But first the scanning awaits me!

One year to go!

Another year of uni has just finsihed. Still waiting for results but all the exams are OVER!
Its been maybe the best semester so far. Probably because I did not stress I was just so over everything that had to do with school that I just didnt care.
Either way I had fun so thats what matters!
I have got ride of my car, moved into a sharehouse and started working in the office again! Things are good at the moment.
I will start doing some more work over the holidays which Im looking forward to. I have also been invited to talk about social media from a students perspective at La Trobe Learning and curriculum conferance in December. Im looking forward to it but Im a bit nervous as well.
There are also 2 major things happening next year, one is my homies wedding and I will miss it. I feel horrible and it really sucks but they are no funds to go home ate the moment. And the same goes for my sister, I wish I could be home with her as well but its in the middle of the semester!
Next year will be the last year then Im finsihed with my degree. As much as its exciting I also need to decide whats next. That will be the hard part. I wish I will have the option to stay as I am not ready to leave just yet.
I have decided to learn spanish next semester, the time has come! It will be a challange but I can do it!
I wish I could tell you more interesting things, but they really are none at the moment. I kind of like it like that though.
I suppose I need to get back to the scanning, one hour to go then its time to go home, prep for 2morrow morning and jump into bed!

End of another week,

This week I have

• got my car serviced
• payed for my car to get serviced :(
• seen a phsycic
• starting to think about my future (again)
• been very happy and smiled every day
• attempted to be organised
• started a diet which fucked up as soon as the weekend hit
• seen my mentor and practice interviews
• been accepted to become a mentor
• volunteerd at Business chicks brekkie with Richard Branson
• started to work on some ideas for a painting
• brought back my child self to life
• said anyone waiting 5000000000 times
• worked with the bestest ppl

And through all that, one thing that has been on my mind is, even though I have felt happpy it has been mixed with the thought of you want what you cant have, and what you can have you usually dont want

Week coming will be interesting I hope, busy with a few obstacles to clime but hopefully a great one! And a week that will sort out these confusing  thoughs running through my head . Life is to short ton stress, what ever happen will happen...and can someone get the aussie dollar to drop I would be forever greatful!

Inspiration

 All my sisters and my brother





Dad Doing his thing!

 He might be gone but hes always with me my little Bongo!

My pretty little niece! I have 2 more, one that is soon able to go to the pub! And the boy who is taller then me (not fair)










Camilla, my brothers pretty wife on her hensnight, he really hit the jackpot there!

 Me and sis pretending to be cool!

My funny and kareoke loving cousins!

Home





Thinking about the good things in life, great family and friends, gives me the inspiration. I know I sound old when I say it, but the years do fly by!












Best Mum anyone can ever find!