Monday in Kiruna

Had a fantastic weekend with friends, drinks and singstar! The night started at my sis place where we all had catch up time and where singing as usual hehe. Before everyone arrived we had a great family dinner with turkey that my sister made. The sauce was awesome!

After that we all went to Ferrum where we danced the night away! Sunday I went with Linda for a walk to Frasses for some good old hang over food. I will start to work on Wednesday, not to much work though, since Im only home for a while I would like to see everyone and just enjoy beeing home. Today its my mums birthday so happy birthday to you! We will celebrate that with a nice dinne, Im going to make salmon. Then im going with Emma to spinning and tonight its movie time with Yvette. Im happy to be back allthough Im still really tired and I have not started to unpack yet. That will be the task for tomorrow. Looking for a place in Preston just hard when I cant go and see it. Really I would like to have my own place but ah well a share house have to do. Think it was a good idea to come home, its been a tuff year that just past and its nice to be here even if its only for a while. Have stuff I need to organise but cant be bothered thinking about it to much right now. What will happen will happen, time will tell.

Back in the snow

I wanne be a billionare...So I can fly First Class!
Trip went ok, long and boring nothing unususal. No dramas, no crashes. Did not have my own tv but on the other hand I managed to sleep pretty much all the way. I Got off the plan in stockholm with 7 hours to kill so I went to rest and fly. I hired a bed for 3 hours and a shower. Best invention ever! After that I finally got on the plan that was going to take me to Luleå. There I was welcomed by Camilla and - 20!
But have to say I missed that clear cold air!
When we got home I had oboy and swedish pizza mmm...
Just to find that I was in bed by 7pm.
Now it is 8 am friday morning and we are getting ready to drive to Kiruna.
Allready have problems getting a ticket back since I have to wait for my CSN money before I can buy it. That can take up to 4 weeks so we will see when I return. Hopefully before the schoolstart anyway.
But Im not going to worry to much about that now. Soon I will finally see my family and my little niece. Tomorrow I will catch up with good friends for a night out in Kiruna (or in maybe).
I do hope this visit will give me time to sort out some problems that occured last year but we will see what happens.
Anyway time to jump in the shower and get ready to go!
Lucky I had some sunshine before I left it is pretty dam dark here!
Have a great weekend everyone and hope to see some of you tomorrow xo

Up up we go

Up up I fly tomorrow, and hopefully not down as some footy teams seem to do hehe. Anyway the bag is almost packed, shit is sorted and Ipod is charging. Dont quite know what to bring since its COLD over there but have a couple of jumpers so I guess that will have to do. I do have stuff at home if everyone has returned what they borrowed will say.

Had my last soup at the soup place for a while, Love it and going to miss it!

Going out for dinner tonight with jaqcui and then movies with Kel. The new movie with cher and christina cant wait love that shit!

Looking forward to see my little niece for the first time, but not so much to the snow. But u got to take the good with the bad I guess. Have had so much on my mind lately and will be nice to clear it without any distractions.

Well Australia I dont think u have seen the last of me yet for a long time! I have plans on doing a master so will be in school forever but why not! Education is always good as long as it pays off!

Allright my friends goodbye for now and see you in Sweden!

Kareoke Party!

Monday Morning, I thought I changed since yesterday......

Kareoke Party came and went like a breath of fresh air! Had so much fun and got dressed up as ginger spice! Nat did my make up looked awesome!

Me and Jas got everything organised during the day, a few fuck ups but but nothing major. Happy about the turn out thanks everyone! Kareoke machine was pumping all night long, until about 10 when it just turned off.

That was about the time people started to leave some had other parties to go to others where a bit over intoxicated haha, Anyway I decided to get my dress up gear off and the black dress on and went to the pub for a few. The kareoke did not end there the singing still went on for a while!

After we went back to a friends place for a couple of drinks, I think I must have been over intoxicated as I walked straight in to the glass door! My forehead is still hurting! Anyway it was a fun night and a fun day.

Got two more sleeps left in Melb so today I have to find my passport, get the tickets organised and start packing away all the shit. But first I will catch up with Pernilla! Waiting for her to wake up from her nightshift.

Tuesday

Some pics from my birthday (oct) and 1 of the current cat madness! (they are pretty cute the small ones!

Cats, costumes, ear infection....costumes, cardealing and chinese....Britney, ginger spice, cher...kids, movies and days of our lifes... Floods, psychologist, gulit and lack of response from some individuals. Pretty much sums up my day.

Oh and add missuderstandings and lack of drive to clear it up. Did nothing wrong, Im sick and thats the end of that story.

Yesterday I watched a doco on 2011, have to say Im starting to get a bit concerned, but I dont think mankind will vansih, hopefully the world will be better place after whatever will happen.

Tomorrow is a new day and hopefully I will have more energy then today. Need to organise a lot. But as the guy sad, look at your life as a cheese and take one hole at a time? Hmm okey dont make much sence but I will try (sounds a bit dirty)

This weekend will hopefully be awesome and so will the next when I arrive back to the cold and Ferrum?? Hehe okey well, when me and my friend where 20 or something we had a goal set for 25, she wanted 2 kids (and she has now) and I hoped to grow up and stop going to Arran (nightclub in Kiruna with drunk 18 year olds and guys chasing them and then me)! I belive that was for 25 anyway, or it could have been some other age, how ever that did not come true for me. Even though I set my goal really low!

Looking forward to seeing u aussies on sat and u swedes next sat!

Thinking about them all up in Queensland and hope you all will have a save place for tonight.

found this blog thing I wrote in 2006, funny it does not get easier with time!

can´t you see I´m here for you, I want you and everything that you are

I can feel you leaving me step by step, I´m in panic

Is it time for revenge? Time to get back at me for hurting you

All theese time all thoose years you where away but in my mind you stayed

I truly belive in you, in us and our life togheter

You´r standing one the edge about to fall and when you do I´ll catch you

Let me in, let me love you, let me show you how amazing you are

You can´t see me now for what I am, I hope soon you do

Standing here waiting for you, I feel empty inside, hurt and angry

stop pushing me away

Is it worth waiting for?

What are you up to what are you doing

Soon you will tell me Im afraid it´s something I dont want to hear

My heart is longing for you, for us and a new beginning

Whit or whitout you

all that is real is love

Monday afternoon, I feel tired and sick. The weekend was good, stayed at Jacquis place a couple of nights. Had a girl dinner on friday and it was great! On sat me an Jaz went out for a couple of drinks in the arvo then off to a friends house warming where I had the best bbq chicken ever! The night ended at high street meeting up with Perni and her mum. Lots of fun on the friday, lots of fun and drama on the saturday, what else do u need?

However when I this morning left jacquis place to go home and rest (since I was to sick for work) I was a bit chocked when I saw strange people sleeping in the bed I usually use. Kelly was not home she was away for a couple of nights at the beach so I think her son decided to have his friends over. This would normally not have irritated me but since all I wanted to do was to go to sleep I was a bit annoyed. So I crashed on the sofa with 7 cats (since the other 7 are spread out in other rooms) and now I have cat hair all over me. Days like this I cannot wait to go home!

I am happy I have a roof over my head at least but in the long run this situation is not really ideal.

I have been reading such a great book the last couple of days called 'only love is real'. Belive that was the name anyway, it really get you thinking about why we have been put here and what our purpose is. I also found a good qoute that really got to me,

If you just set out to be liked, you would be prepared to compromise on anything at any time, and you would achieve nothing.
-- Margaret Thatcher

If the only mission is to be liked and loved by others you have started at the wrong place. You can only truly be loved when you love your self first, and in loving others you accept them for everything they are and everything they are not.

Changing another is impossible as change has to come from them selves.

My lesson this past years has been exactly that, still I struggle to let my self go and do what is truly fulfilling for my self.

But 2011 is the year when all that is not love is not worth it.

Also feel that I need to say that Im not liking Australia's immigration policies right now since I can only go home for a short while. However I cant help the feeling that it might have been ment to be. Im going to stop stressing about the future and just go with the flow!

Work. workety work

Today I have scanned papers and done archiving, for 7.5 hours......I have done 423 files so far and there is probably 2000 to go. Lucky I will leave soon and someone else can do the rewarding work! Just had pasta sauce with glutefree pasta, so good I dont feel bloated. So for this year I think I'll stick to glutenfree stuff to see if anything change. Seems to be the way to go now days. Want the weekend to arrive CANT WAIT! Have nothing special planned but still cant wait. Will check in at a house warming before it is time to shop for next weekend. Should be good. 2 weeks left to that awsome 24 hour flight wohooo how lucky am I!

Okey enough with the bullshit. I know everything happens for a reason but PLS give me the reason now! Over and out x

2011

To do list,

Go to school and get the transmission approved

Pack my stuff that is spread out over half of Melbourne

Sell my car

Work a bit as well and purchase all the stuff for the party, that is the week coming

Went out for a couple of drinks again 2nd of Jan, since it was public holiday in oz the 3rd noone was working that day. It was fun and it was good to have some girl talks as well.

I dont want to classify my self as just another girl but yep I can be very girlie, insecure and stupid. But after you fall you get back up again and thats what Im doing now.

Got a bit of a thinker the other day when I saw what one of my special friends wrote on his status, hero from the north thats me hehe.

Anyway I think the drama here in Melbourne is enough at the moment but be back in Sweden in two weeks. By then I just want to rest and relax and get to know my self as a singel woman again.

Relationships are tuff but relationships when your are from 2 different cultures and have different values and ideas is close to impossible.

There is nothing wrong with being alone either it feel nice to have noone to answer to even though it can get.

Tonight I will stay at JD. Where I is at the moment there is 15 cats! 6 of them kittens and they have taken over the bathroom so it makes it quite hard to shower! Tell u more about that another time, got some quiches for lunch in the oven.

Welcome 2011

New years eve was so much fun! It was hot outside, I had a drink in my hand and we danced to 80s music. I feel so happy and renewed, this year is going to be great!

J offered to have my going away party at her place, bring on the kareoke! Someone is coming to set it all up and they have drinks as well. It is a singer/celeb dress up and I think Im going as Cher! What a way to end a great time here cannot wait! So it is sunday today, tomorrow is a public holiday so what should I do tonight? Feel like a lot of things but maybe the question is what CAN I do? Feel 2-ways about leaving now after I had so much fun, but better to leave when ur on the top!

xo