Tuesday

Some pics from my birthday (oct) and 1 of the current cat madness! (they are pretty cute the small ones!

Cats, costumes, ear infection....costumes, cardealing and chinese....Britney, ginger spice, cher...kids, movies and days of our lifes... Floods, psychologist, gulit and lack of response from some individuals. Pretty much sums up my day.

Oh and add missuderstandings and lack of drive to clear it up. Did nothing wrong, Im sick and thats the end of that story.

Yesterday I watched a doco on 2011, have to say Im starting to get a bit concerned, but I dont think mankind will vansih, hopefully the world will be better place after whatever will happen.

Tomorrow is a new day and hopefully I will have more energy then today. Need to organise a lot. But as the guy sad, look at your life as a cheese and take one hole at a time? Hmm okey dont make much sence but I will try (sounds a bit dirty)

This weekend will hopefully be awesome and so will the next when I arrive back to the cold and Ferrum?? Hehe okey well, when me and my friend where 20 or something we had a goal set for 25, she wanted 2 kids (and she has now) and I hoped to grow up and stop going to Arran (nightclub in Kiruna with drunk 18 year olds and guys chasing them and then me)! I belive that was for 25 anyway, or it could have been some other age, how ever that did not come true for me. Even though I set my goal really low!

Looking forward to seeing u aussies on sat and u swedes next sat!

Thinking about them all up in Queensland and hope you all will have a save place for tonight.

found this blog thing I wrote in 2006, funny it does not get easier with time!

can´t you see I´m here for you, I want you and everything that you are

I can feel you leaving me step by step, I´m in panic

Is it time for revenge? Time to get back at me for hurting you

All theese time all thoose years you where away but in my mind you stayed

I truly belive in you, in us and our life togheter

You´r standing one the edge about to fall and when you do I´ll catch you

Let me in, let me love you, let me show you how amazing you are

You can´t see me now for what I am, I hope soon you do

Standing here waiting for you, I feel empty inside, hurt and angry

stop pushing me away

Is it worth waiting for?

What are you up to what are you doing

Soon you will tell me Im afraid it´s something I dont want to hear

My heart is longing for you, for us and a new beginning

Whit or whitout you