Xmas Time

Christmas is around the corner, a new year is about to begin. Again!

I would like to say thank you to all of my friends around the world, and friends I had and lost, and thank you to my wonderful family!
You have all been a part of my life and helped me become a person, an individual.
You have pushed me to do things Im scared off, to step outside my comfort zone. You have been there through hard times when I just couldn't stand alone.
You have laughed and loved with me.
And you have also brought me back to earth and told me off when I needed to hear it.
You have all had an impact in my life in one way or the other, some more some less.
And for that I love you all!
For the first time in my life I feel safe and grounded in my own body, with my personality. I feel like Im starting to know who I am.
After all the years of struggle, up and downs, anger, love and sadness. I still have all of those feel;ings but now I know how to deal with them
And I have to say I like my self now. Who I have become.
And for the things I would like to change, I will, but nothing comes overnight.

For me christmas is not a big deal. Especially not when Im here. Christmas is snow. If there is any time of the year I get depressed for being away it is this time. But its also a time when I can reflect on what Ive done, where my life is headed and be happy for everything I have experienced so far. And be happy for the wonderful people I have in my life, both here and back in Sweden.

So Merry Christmas to you all! I hope you receive everything you wish for, but mostly I hope your are all happy and safe whereever you are.
xoxoxo

Home

Its not like I dont get it, I do. But maybe its better to pretend that I dont.
Playing smart or playing stupid?
Either way, I know I get it thats all I need to know.
The way you see me, the way you think I am, the good things you see in me, the bad things you see in me. They are all things YOU see in me. I do care how people view me. But how well do you really know me?
Do you know me well enought to discuss my actions? Do you feel you know me well enough to judge me?
Our actions is not always smart calculated choices, somethimes its plain stupidity.
But isnt that the whole idea? What is so wrong with doing wrong if you learn from it?
And remember what is wrong for me might not be wrong for you.

As I was reading through some old posts and I started missing people. My friends and family at home. But also friends here that I no longer have contact with for different reasons. I missed the feeling of feeling at home so to say. I do feel at home here, but I havent been here for that long yet. I havent created that homly feeling. Maybe I shoud start by organising my room.
Home is where the heart is. Im just not so sure where mine is at the moment.

Wasabi makes everything better

Its spicy, its hot, a bit sour? Clears your throuth. Yeah It makes it all better.
And its so amazingly good!

Lesson of the week is to distance my self from others problems. Not to let my self get affected. Accept it as it is.
I feel content at the moment, happy and excited.
I do not want to lose that feeling, so I wont.
The difference between a good day and a bad day is your attitude.
So yeah there will be bad days, but it will not be anyone elses fault.
And yes there will be people to piss you off, but its up to you how you approach  it.

Tomorrow is a new day.
Hopefully one with a good attitude