all that is real is love

Monday afternoon, I feel tired and sick. The weekend was good, stayed at Jacquis place a couple of nights. Had a girl dinner on friday and it was great! On sat me an Jaz went out for a couple of drinks in the arvo then off to a friends house warming where I had the best bbq chicken ever! The night ended at high street meeting up with Perni and her mum. Lots of fun on the friday, lots of fun and drama on the saturday, what else do u need?

However when I this morning left jacquis place to go home and rest (since I was to sick for work) I was a bit chocked when I saw strange people sleeping in the bed I usually use. Kelly was not home she was away for a couple of nights at the beach so I think her son decided to have his friends over. This would normally not have irritated me but since all I wanted to do was to go to sleep I was a bit annoyed. So I crashed on the sofa with 7 cats (since the other 7 are spread out in other rooms) and now I have cat hair all over me. Days like this I cannot wait to go home!

I am happy I have a roof over my head at least but in the long run this situation is not really ideal.

I have been reading such a great book the last couple of days called 'only love is real'. Belive that was the name anyway, it really get you thinking about why we have been put here and what our purpose is. I also found a good qoute that really got to me,

If you just set out to be liked, you would be prepared to compromise on anything at any time, and you would achieve nothing.
-- Margaret Thatcher

If the only mission is to be liked and loved by others you have started at the wrong place. You can only truly be loved when you love your self first, and in loving others you accept them for everything they are and everything they are not.

Changing another is impossible as change has to come from them selves.

My lesson this past years has been exactly that, still I struggle to let my self go and do what is truly fulfilling for my self.

But 2011 is the year when all that is not love is not worth it.

Also feel that I need to say that Im not liking Australia's immigration policies right now since I can only go home for a short while. However I cant help the feeling that it might have been ment to be. Im going to stop stressing about the future and just go with the flow!