So yes girls are needy, demanding and just a pain in the as sometimes. I know I can be. I want guys to understand, listen and talk. So much I just end up making them angry. I also push them away when I start to feel things are rocky. I dont want to get hurt or dumped. I dont want to be that one sitting in tears wonder where it all went wrong. But no matter how hard you try u end up just there. And sometimes you put your self there as well. Yes there are things they just have to understand, and yes they have to listen to your needs. But the question is how much can you ask for? And when you finally get the answer you want theres always something else. I dont know why I have this problem, why I always need to be reassured about everything. Why cant I be the one storming out, go off in to my cage and stay there and calm down? Why do I want answers straight away? Why to I try so much is to much?
I know when Im in love, cause love makes me go stupid. A day can get ruined hearing the wrong word from that person. And a day can get great hearing the right. Its like everything I learned in the past just disseapers somewhere and your mind is starting to play tricks on you. Why? Im sick of it. I want to feel calm, I want to feel save all the time. I want my head to start thinking again. I know a part of the problem is me and Im trying every day to fix it. but Its so hard. What can I say. Im in love and love makes you crazy. And no matter how hard it is sometimes the good side is always better and thats why I stay. Thats why I love it. Thats why I love him. He puts up with me and my crazy ways. Maybe its time for me to slow down and stop asking for a perfect relationship. Cause there is none. Its 2 people staying togheter through ups and downs, laugh and cry and thats how it should be.
So I will start my journey to change my insecurity. With positive thoughts you get a positive life!
Goodnight
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