thoughts

Tuesday night.
The weekend is over, and it was a good and bad weekend. Good that I realized some things about people around me, things I didnt see before cause I was to busy ignoring it. But now I know. And I know now to stay away.
Bad in that way I consumed way to much alcohol and lost every bit of common sence I had left in me. I didnt do anything bad, I just dont like the feeling anymore.
Why do I have to be so needy all the time? Why do I always want more, why cant I just settle with what I got?
I though I needed a change, but I know now Im the one who needs to change.
My insecurity is taking over my life and Im not gonne let it happen anymore.
Maybe its time to open my eyes and face myself. Stop pretending like Im perfect.
Start listen to my heart and give my mind a rest.
Start making decisions more carefully and honest.
Feel the love I have around me instead of chasing for love I will never get. Cause Im chasing shadows.
And stop beeing so restless.
Start living right here and now! And the first thing Im gonne do on my road to truth and happiness is to get a tattoo representing me, myself and I.