Its funny how stress can get to you. Even when you think its not there. Well now I have learned to see it coming. When such a simple think like a broken oven makes you go nuts, well then is definatly something wrong. The smallest thing makes you have a nrevous breakdown.
They say stress can come from a lot of things. Well when you have no kids, and not even a full time job...the stress must come from somewhere else.
For me its exams. They might not seem to stressful to start with, or during the exam period, But after a while you can definatly feel the pressure. The pressure I have put on my self to be the best and better.
Working and studying is hard, and struggle financially is harder. As well as being away from home. And all those things combined plus the exam period has made me go over the edge. At least I understand what it is that makes me feel like this, and I know it will pass. But it dosent make it any easier. So when you come home and the oven is broken and your shoes are broken, combined with a broken car light...Yeah I think its fair to say it was a bit to much.
I cant fix the oven or buy new shoes or fix the car asap. But really they are minor issues, they are other shoes, you can cook without an oven and I just have to get a light and fix the car my self. So now after two hours of mental breakdown, I have calmed down and can now see things as a rational person. Lucky no one was home. If there is something else I learned is that im not exactly the best company when Im stressed. So Im looking forward to brighter days and to find my normal self again. Only one exam left then a break. At least it will give me some time to do all the other things i freak out about and have now time doing.
Sort out everything for my visitors is prio nr 1!
Yeah stress can be hard when we are put under pressure. But I have been there before I know it will past. But sometimes you need an hour or two to freak out, get it all out of your system and then start over. Breaking it all down in manageble pieces and do one thing at a time. Really there is no point freaking out about things that have not yet occured and may never occur.
So tonight I will take a break from everything, watch a good show, go to bed early and start a new day tomorrow. Hopefully later down the track I will realised what I learned, even it nothing is making sence at the moment. But with such a strong drive to continue, it has to be worth it in the end, right?
They say stress can come from a lot of things. Well when you have no kids, and not even a full time job...the stress must come from somewhere else.
For me its exams. They might not seem to stressful to start with, or during the exam period, But after a while you can definatly feel the pressure. The pressure I have put on my self to be the best and better.
Working and studying is hard, and struggle financially is harder. As well as being away from home. And all those things combined plus the exam period has made me go over the edge. At least I understand what it is that makes me feel like this, and I know it will pass. But it dosent make it any easier. So when you come home and the oven is broken and your shoes are broken, combined with a broken car light...Yeah I think its fair to say it was a bit to much.
I cant fix the oven or buy new shoes or fix the car asap. But really they are minor issues, they are other shoes, you can cook without an oven and I just have to get a light and fix the car my self. So now after two hours of mental breakdown, I have calmed down and can now see things as a rational person. Lucky no one was home. If there is something else I learned is that im not exactly the best company when Im stressed. So Im looking forward to brighter days and to find my normal self again. Only one exam left then a break. At least it will give me some time to do all the other things i freak out about and have now time doing.
Sort out everything for my visitors is prio nr 1!
Yeah stress can be hard when we are put under pressure. But I have been there before I know it will past. But sometimes you need an hour or two to freak out, get it all out of your system and then start over. Breaking it all down in manageble pieces and do one thing at a time. Really there is no point freaking out about things that have not yet occured and may never occur.
So tonight I will take a break from everything, watch a good show, go to bed early and start a new day tomorrow. Hopefully later down the track I will realised what I learned, even it nothing is making sence at the moment. But with such a strong drive to continue, it has to be worth it in the end, right?
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